It may just be New Year's optimism, but I suddenly feel...happy. It's this happy feeling in my gut and throat and I just can't help but smile.

Goodbye to 2009, welcome 2010! I hope this year is better to me than the previous one.

Once again it seems that I've forgotten about my LiveJournal. I promise I'll be more active in updating.

Recent events in my life:

• Finally getting therapy after over a year of knowing I was depressed
• Started winter break. Yay!
• Going to write a play in April

Other than that I got nothing else to say!

I believe that there's a point in everybody's life after childhood when they realize that the majority of what has been said to them and what has happened to them has been a lie. At that point they need to go out and find a new truth and discover who they are. Perhaps it's my current state of depression talking, but I think I've reached that point.

Perhaps it's better to simply remain silent and enjoy ignorance than to say something and receive a definite answer.

Ever agree to do something and then realize it's probably a bad idea after you can't take it back?

Yeah, I figured that I might as well do that whole thing that people tend to do on blogs where they just rant about something they hate for a bit. So, yeah.

The Secret Life of the American Teenager

First thing I thought when I heard that title? "That's a pretty great name for a show!" (Which I stick to.) And I expected it to be some sort of show like True Life (which I'll admit I've never actually seen.) where they'd follow around some teenagers for a week or so to see what happens.

Instead, the whole show revolves around a fictional high school where everyone is constantly getting it on. Also, there's a guy with Down's Syndrome and Molly Ringwald (who am I a big fan of...if she's reading this right now, feel free to get in touch with me, I think I could crank out a movie script for you in about five minutes that would be a million times better than this piece of crap show).

Still, a high school full of teenagers gettin' in on? Sounds like the plot of a decent porno. And the guy with Down's Syndrome? Doesn't sound bad, I mean Rainman was good. And Molly Ringwald! Who doesn't like The Breakfast Club and Sixteen Candles!! (Side note: RIP John Hughes, you will be missed.) But no. All of these hinge on a plotline that exemplifies a concept I despise. Abstenence.

While it's okay on paper, abstinence just doesn't work and they should focus on teaching kids facts and safe sex. Anyway, the plotline is a pregnant teenager...yeah, because I haven't seen an unplanned pregnancy on every other television drama before. Hell, it's branching out into comedy now! (Even though Knocked Up was the funniest of the Judd Apatow movies I've seen...actually, if he's reading this, get in touch with me, I think you'd be a great director for this Molly Ringwald project I've got going.)

And the thing is, the series keeps going on after this main plotline is over. Those characters are kinda pushed into the background and other characters become more prominent, which is normally good! Except that these characters are even less believable.

One plotline that completely infuriates me involves this girl who has recently lost her virginity to some preppy-looking dillhole. Her father dies in a plane crash. I know what you're thinking, "But that doesn't sound too bad!" No. It doesn't. If they had branched off and run with her depression or something. But they didn't.

Soon after, the character who shall now be known as Deflower Girl runs into the Mentally Disabled kid. And the Mentally Disabled Kid tells her that she killed her dad. By banging that preppy-looking dillhole. What's worse is that she fucking believes him. And breaks up with the preppy bastard. Normally this would be put down to survivor's guilt. If it weren't for the "helpful" message from the cast at the end of each episode. (Can you tell I'm being sarcastic with that helpful? Because I'm trying really hard to be.)

This quote is almost exactly how they say it, I couldn't actually find a quote of the service message, so this is from my memory. If you don't trust me, that's your problem.

Anybody else just throw up a little bit? Yeah, I thought so. Normally I would be only a little put off by that, if the show practiced what it preached!

First off: on average, the word "sex" is said about 25 times an episode. And if my memory serves me right, this show is only an hour long. That means that they say sex at least once every two minutes. It's a shame they can't vary it up and throw a "fuck" in there and make them sound like real teenagers. Hell, I wouldn't complain if they said "fornicating" or "intercourse" or "boning" or "bang"...I came up with a lot more varied words for sex off the top of my head ABC! Tell the writers to vary it a little!

Secondly, the only reasons these kids felt anything really bad after their first times (or after it in general), is for two reasons:

1. They were stupid. (No protection? Come on. That's the very first thing they teach about safe sex. Whatever happened to "No glove, no love"?
2. Somebody put it into their heads that what they did was wrong. "You killed him by having sex before marriage! You did it! You! YOOOOOOOOUUUU!"

You know what, I'm going to sum this all up in one sentence: "I've watched a couple episodes of The Secret Life of the American Teenager, and it sucks; don't watch it."

I'm gonna go watch a better show, like Firefly, which was better and had a more interesting plot of 14 episodes then Secret Life has done in it's entire run. Stupid Fox.

So, yeah, I know I haven't updated for a while, but mainly because I've had nothing to say. But, since I'm already on here, I might as well go through the things that have happened to me so far this summer.

• Got my learner's permit
• Went over Jess's house
• Starting working more hours per week at work
• Got a raise just before they bumped minimum wage up to the amount of my raise
• Started working for the new minimum wage
• Finished reading "The Crucible" by The Amazing Arthur Miller (if he weren't dead you know he'd change his name to add "The Amazing")
• I'm coming on to my one year anniversary at my job
• Coming up to the one year anniversary of the only staff meeting I attended at my job
• Bought a few movies
• Finished my collection of Beatles albums
• Got my mood to the best it's been since early March

But mainly I'm just hanging around, staying up to a (probably) unhealthy hour, and then waking up at 7 to go to work and restart the cycle.

I love summer!

That the moon has passed between the Earth and the sun.

In theaters? I believe the last one I saw in theaters was Angel and Demons which I saw on a date that probably wasn't a date but I call a date anyway. In general the last one I watched was The Rocky Horror Picture Show, an amazing musical about transvestites! Well, it's about more than that but that's the easiest way to sum it up.

Well, I think my last post about school ending was lacking something, so I decided to make another one. So, without further ado, the things I have learned this year in order of being learned:

1. I'm a depressant, who knew?
2. My parents don't believe I'm a depressant. Thanks for the support.
3. My friends are horrible.
4. When you like someone for an extensive amount of time, ask them out before someone else does.
5. Sometimes the people you have crushes on are whores and you don't even notice...
6. Don't call people you have crushes on whores...
7. Women remember things even after you apologize for saying them.
8. Sometimes getting away from your so called friends can be the best thing for your mood.
9. I have amazing friends.
10. Just because you like someone doesn't mean you should tell them that.
11. Being extremely handsome and charming means that you can take back anything.
12. When people say that you don't know someone, don't bring up that person's recent break up as an example that you know them.
13. Love can be amazing
14. I'm extremely paranoid and clingy
15. Love sucks
16. Just because you like someone doesn't mean you should tell them that.
17. Just because someone asks you to go to the movies alone with them (while knowing that you like them), does not mean it's a date...or does it?
18. Sometimes being offered sex for your birthday can be just the kick in the ass you need to realize that you only love someone like a sibling.
19. Possibly doesn't necessarily mean yes.
20. If girls don't want me, it's their loss because I'm an amazing catch.